Thursday, December 16, 2010
Normal Feelings?
I have not written in awhile, matter of fact I have not been on the blog much at all. Been a bit bummed lately, we still are not completed with our paperwork process and I really expected to be by now. This just means I have to add even more time to our "wait" time. I know that Gods plan is bigger than I will ever know, but...sometimes it is so hard. I want nothing more than to be a mom and well it is just not time yet I suppose! Normally seeing all the families and seeing what is going on really brings me joy, but lately I feel more sad and jealous, especially with the holidays. I am trying to move forward with it and take advantage of "my" time before that becomes a thing of the past but really I am ready to not have this time!! I am sure some moms are going to save this and send it to me in a few years when I am begging for 5 minutes of alone time! I do wish everyone out there a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I hope those waiting will get a blessing from Santa ( Meg, Jenny, Kwatkins...) and for Jennifer just waiting to pick up her littles ones- a quick trip and continue to have fun shopping!! And those that have their little ones that bring me joy to hear the stories and see the pictures have a great holiday and I look forward to the posts!
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i understand how you feel! are you going to be on the call in today? im thinking i will avoid it.
ReplyDeleteAww... Thanks. I wondered what happened to you. I am done shopping.. except for a few little things. Now, I am trying to do things around the house and get work done ahead of time.
ReplyDeleteI hope I don't lose track of bloggers when they finally come home. You will have to keep in touch via email. ;-)
I think what keeps my sanity is all of these blogs talking about how amazing their kids are now that they are home. Plus, I have a few cyber buddies who came home in the last year, and they are LOVING the holidays. Good to know I have that for next year.
Have you thought any further about going 0-5. You still have time to decide. I know I waivered between 0-5 and 0-6 until the last second (ended up not mattering). I am not stressing over k, and my oldest will be in a very tough school. It will work out. I just believe that.
Email me any time you want to chat.
P.S. You are normal. We all know everyone tells us to take advantage of the luxury of alone time and be productive.. Yet, I think we are all in the same boat.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the shout out! And you are certainly not alone these days. After 13 months of waiting I am ready to get this show on the road... Like you I have had, and enjoyed, a lot of "me" time =)Your paperwork WILL get done, you WILL be on the Waiting list, and you WILL receive a referral. This is what I keep telling myself these days =) Enjoy your holidays!
ReplyDeleteI chalk it up to the holidays. I think all the regular "waiting" feelings are just magnified right now. I really thought that by this Christmas we would have the kids home, or at least have a referral. But, I have to believe that all will work out as it is supposed to and we will end up with the kids who are destined to be ours. Of course, that doesn't keep me from being jealous of those who have their kids home or have a referral! Good luck with the paperwork - just keep plugging away and you'll be on the wait list before you know it.
ReplyDeleteKristin
Hang in there Kristen. All I've done this last year is question why it wasn't happening faster for us and why we had two failures. And then - one phone call changed everything. Now, when I hold Isabella, all I do is thank God because this is THE child we are meant to parent. The timing totally makes sense because it brought us to her and her to us. It's 100% frustrating until it happens, and then you'll realize why it all happened the way it did. I really do believe that. Thinking of you and your hubby and praying for you both. Happy Holidays!
ReplyDeleteThanks for commenting on my blog. I so remember where you are. We were married for 11 years before we had Ariam. Holidays got progressively harder to manage. And you get tired of having all the time in the world for yourself. I hope next Christmas will be better....
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