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Highlight of my day? Well we sent off our home study & I-600 today! We should be set with our dossier in 6 weeks! Yippee then it is just wait time!  Over the last few weeks we had been pretty stressed about this, not the wait time but the turn in of the dossier, with that we would need to turn in a huge lump sum of money.  We had no idea how we were going to do this, ok well that is not totally true, we had been cutting back on everything the past few months- no Starbucks,no shopping,  only lunch from home....we began a Facebook campaign and saw some nice traction from our friends.  But it was not putting a dent I'm what we needed, so this past weekend we had a garage sale, we were pretty proud of the money we made and Duane sold his entire cd collection- we are talking 20 years worth of music.... But still just a ding in what we needed.  We knew it would happen though R is our son we were just worried if we had to push back another month that leaves him without a family for that much longer, that leaves me without my son.
But...there was nothing we could do.  Well long story long...check out HONY on Facebook! You will see what happened!

R, tonight is no different I miss you so much and I would do anything to have a new picture of you! There are now thousands of people that feel a love for you, I hope you can feel it! You probably don't know what it is but know it is compassion, love, it is humanity.  You are a very special boy and I can't wait to have you in my life!

I miss you...

How do you miss someone you do not even know?  Maybe miss is the wrong word? Long for maybe? What I do know is that I want you home with us, I want our family complete with you in it.  I want to make sure you did your homework, you had a good day at school, that your eating vegetables...

I have images of Chaltu helping you to learn english while you help her to hone her soccer skills.
I can imagine the two of conspiring against your dad and I to get your way for movie night! I think about the mother/son nights we will have.

I want to know your favorite color, what kind of doctor do you want to be?  The learning stage is fun, challenging and always surprising!

Please God let him know, give him a peace, we are coming.  We will be there. He will be home with us soon.  This time next year we will be going to both soccer games, both parent conferences...I will be making enough rice to feed an army (an army of 2!).

I love you R and soon I will be able to show you that.

Brother and sister

As I drove home from work today I started thinking about Chaltu and R.  This time next year they will be officially brother and sister.  I wonder what that will be like. 2 strangers with very similar stories becoming 1 family with the same story.  Will they share secrets, will they fight, will they have a bond that cannot be broken.
I want R home, we are so far away from that at this point and it saddens me.  As he fell asleep tonight did he pray for a mom and dad. Is he wondering why he has not been chosen, I need him to know we are coming. We cannot wait for him to be our son. We are doing everything possible to make this process go quickly, we are saving every penny we have, we have wonderful friends who are donating their money to help.  R we are coming, soon your prays can be for things like a new soccer ball or for your sister to quit stealing your candy, my prays can be changed too, I will finally get to be your mom.  I will tuck you in, kiss you goodnight, keep you safe and love to the end of the world and back.